Wednesday, November 29, 2006

I Need An Angel

I apologize for the gruff and artless words I've used in my double-previous post. I may have overreacted, but if you were to stand in my position, you wouldn't think that way you did, do you? What i'm telling you, or whoever... is learn to respect, even if he's a total stranger... if you even give a damn, for all that matters. But sometimes, we see each other as if we were strangers, even though we do know each other. What an irony. You are my friend, but you are somewhat not. Funny, isn't it? Of course, I can always choose not to care about stuff like that, or pretend that all these never has happened because you may think that I'm just being retarded for wasting my time, and probably yours...but it frightens me that we are just living in a world so full of pretense where one can never be that capable of getting on par unless he's one damn pro actor. It makes life so uncertain. But what can we say...this is reality. And I hate it. I dislike the fact that I'm not happy for things that happened and are happening around. There're so many things running through my head it's blurring me out. At times, I'm clueless of my actions. Everything. A couple of my friends told me to "not worry...enjoy life to its fullest everyday." Seriously, I wish I could. Maybe I don't know how to enjoy life. Or maybe there's just nothing to enjoy in life. Someone told me I need God. I don't really know. Each day I feel like a withering flower. And I ask myself, what's gotten into me... Perhaps angels could trumpet down from heaven and do miracles, save lives. I can only make a wish for that.

freed his mind P.Y.R.A - U.G.I.N.E at 9:42 PM [comment]

Life is beautiful, so are you.